beach

we went to the beach Sunday- we had fun. Zander had a blast running in the lake and trying to jump off the docks. He took a few head dives but he was ok.
we played in the sand and tried to swim. He was even a good boy and took a break for his lunch and then right back to the water..........
When he was done he pretty much passed right out on the car ride home--pheww it was hot and sticky, but oh what a great afternoon.

most days

on most days... i need a new life & a new me, but i'll keep the kid. UGH!
Some times a break would be great----and i'm not talking about a break that i have to fight to get.
i need time with just some friends....and alone time w/ the hubby (for more then a couple hours)
I push certain people out of my life because they are useless/ worthless and just plain bloodsucking. & then i try to keep some people in my life (which I shouldn't) because i think that they are good and will change and come to their senses..........
Maybe if my god damn inlaws would be halfway decent grandparents then it wouldn't be so bad- but they r the most aweful grandparents and parents that i know.
the only people that Zander really has is his Uncel Andy and his Aunt Lorie, and the sad thing is ...Uncle Andy is moving away :(