seriously think before you judge!!!

so in regards to my prior posting:

*** some seem to think that I wanted to kill my self---SO NOT TRUE---- i have a little boy that needs a mommy, & i am praying that one day things will get better.

*** others think that I am UNSTABLE right now---- I wouldnt say 'unstable' I would say 'got alot going on in my life'---unstable is a harsh word and many people that are unstable really cant think for themselves let alone others.... i can very clearly think for myself and others. i know exactly what we need and how to take care of myself and my son.

*** then some people think that i just am feeling pity for myself---- so what if i am? those people obviously aren't & probably never will go through what i am in life.

*** finally i have the very few that just know i just need a venting source---everybody vents in different ways- som ecry, yell, write their feelings down, punch things or people and even go above & beyond safety---i do a few...cry (alot!) and i was always told to write it down- it helps...and you know what... it does- word for word

just hearing from those people that did contact me after they read that posting made me realize who i can really talk to about some of my major problems and who i just need to keep far away & under the radar.

i say all this because i want you to know that i am ok, i just cant do it alone and there are always going to be some very bad days...for everyone in all walks of life...that day that i wrote that blog, just happened to be a real bad day for me--kinda like a melt down at the moment, i was fine by that evening... writing up my feelings was a way for me to get past that...just imagine what could have happened if i couldnt release my frustration on my blog...oh wait- dont imagine, you might think it would be worse then what it really could've turned out to be....lol.