STRESSING

So I have been watching a handful of children these past couple weeks and i think it has come to an end. I still have the 2 boys that are PT 2x's a week, but I am also watching a 19month old & her 9 week old brother. I also have occasionally watched this little 1yr old boy. Some days are light on kids and others i have had all of them at once. Now i first wanted to only take 2 kids, FT, between ages 1- 4.... and somehow i ended up at this point. Everything about it is so wrong. I shouldn't have this many at one time and i also shouldnt have more then 2 kids under the age of 2 years old. My son isn't even 2 yet- so that mean i should only take 1 more little kid. The 2 boys are fine to have- they are old enough to take care of them self (no diapers, feed themself...) and then there is the others.............
well the little 1yr old, his parents haven't got a clue--- they bounce back & forth to different jobs and this little boys schedule changes all the time... not only that- i have told them over and over again-"i need your schedule 1 full week in advance!" and yet they call me at last minutes notice and some times they will say he is coming one day and then never show up---- and then call and tell me he will be there the next day (a day that they didn't plan for)I think that itis time to get rid of this poor child- due to his parents stupidity.
Then i have the 2 kids; let me tell you... so a long time ago i was friends w/ the mother and we just lost contact w/ each other, well when she was coming back from maternity leave , she asked me to do her a favor and watch the kids until September. I felt guilty (because i was watching the other boys)and I told her yes. She is a great person, but unfortunately i do not beleive in her parenting skills. her litte daughter (the 19month old) is aweful--- she has this screch that will bust your ear drums and she ALWAYS wants her way. she will scream or whine if you even look at her the wrong way, or she throws a fit and yells "NO" until you end up giving in. She also has this thing about hitting when she can't get her way/ or slapping/ kicking.... now i have only had her for 2 weeks and i have seen all of this, she will ignore you when you are speaking to her and she hates to share anything. This type of behavior has afftected the entire household. Zander is miserable andis constinantly getting beat on. He doesn't sleep and i noticed that he started to hit. or if he can't get his way he used to get upset/ maybe cry or throw a tantrum (what i thought was a fit)- but the other day he completely flipped out - i have never seen that before and i know it is because he see's her do it. i will not hit or spank another child so the only thing i can do to her is explain to her why she shouldnt do what she is doing and put her in the play pen. I have seen the mother talk to her and try to correct her--- let me tell you, it sounds like she is trying to read her a story or something- she is so gentle and lets her just run all over the place and have her way- the girl doesn't listen and the mom just lets it go- she says if you ignore it then the kids will stop because they aren't getting the attention for doing something wrong....(yea, ok.. whatever!)i also have told her mother all of the things she is doing w/ me and she said that they have talked to her ( the daughter) about this----i'm sorry but what good does it do to talk to your 19month old about how bad she is---why don't you learn to discpline her when she is doing it----- i dont know, maybe have a stern voice when you scold her or even smack her on the bottom (i am not a beater, but sometimes i think a smack on a kids butt or hands may just work---- i never got beat, but i sure got spanked and i learned my lesson) and then theres the baby 9 weeks old--- i know he is just an infant, but he is cinstinantly crying--- he has the typical cry for food or dirty diaper and stuff like that, but he also cries because he wants to be held all the time. at first i thought nothing of it because i asked if he is held all the time and was told "no". but i soon found out that is not true--- he is always held and he sleeps with mom in her bed--- all night, she told me that if he cries at night, then noone will get sleep and they won't be able to work....but you are making it so much more worse for everyone else that has your child for 9 1/2 hours a day, 5 days a week! let your kid just cry and he will soon learn. this little guy is going to end up just like his sister. it is so hard to take care of an infant that always wants your attention and a crazy 2year old, plus my own child that wants to copy the crazy girl and the older kids.
i have been so stressed out over this that i can't sleep, and my virtigo has kicked in so bad, w/ tenson headaches constinantly. This has to change- i should just do what i originally said and only take 1-2 kids. Since i am keeping the 2 PT boys i only want 1 more child to watch... i'll even take one PT w/ set days. i am letting my emotions get in the way when i took on the kids and look where it got me... i wanted to help all these parents and they can'tr help me- so now i have to piss them off and tell them i cannot take their kids anymore.

on top of everything- i sprained my wrist or did something to it the other day and the orthepedic surgeon said that i should be taking any kids for the next 2 weeks- to let it heal. well that sucks.
but anyways----- there is my vent for today----my head just wont stop hurting, hopefully in the next few days i will relax with NO kids!

hey-- did everyone check out my scrapblog website... look at the blog that i wrote prior to this and it is on that!