OMG--- my family!!!!

so i have to rant about this
it has bothered me for 2 days now---and i can't sleep

so Thursday was the 1 year anniversary date of my mothers death and i asked my father if he would like to go do dinner. i didn't want to make it a sappy dinner and be all sad- i just thought it would be nice to be with my family. so i asked dad if he wanted to have anyone else there he said sure and it ended up being... me , dad, my sister Lorie, & 2 brothers Tim & Andy. i had a really good time believe it or not. it was a nice dinner and entertaining..plus i enjoyed being with just my immediate family. there was no sadness or drama or anything like that (which is shocking, because in my family there is always DRAMA)
well then there was the after dinner- my brother Tim wanted to do coffee in the shop next door- i wasn't going to go and neither did some others.... but then--- my dad forgot to give Tim his camera and was driving his car- sitting in the middle of the road trying to talk to me, so i just took the camera and told him I'd give it to Tim--- so i went in the coffee shop to find them... once i gave him the camera i was going to leave, but i had to stupidly ask what was wrong----well..............DRAMA!
my brother was concerned about my fathers health, and grant it so was I. my sister didn't seem to concerned, but the conversation became this big freaking drama case. and not only that- i feel as if we repeated ourselves 1 million times. what could have been a 15 min conversation of our concerns for our father just dragged out and i felt uncomfortable at times. i know how i feel about my father dating others and right now i do not like it, but that is something i have to get through... i also don't like that my father is a completely different person and avoids his family, but i hope that he comes back around after he establishes a relationship. when i expressed these feelings to them- i felt like they looked at me like i had no clue to reality and to get over myself....... um---- shut the f*ck up... i can feel and think however i want. but- nope the conversation just had to be dragged out and kept going and going........
i know that my nice evening out with my family just went bad. i couldn't wait to get out of there and be in my home with my NON DRAMA family. i think my sister was starting to think the same thing. it just bothered me so much- it's like i can't even be around my family for more then a couple hours anymore... especially my brother, i love him & all but he is either always busy or is trying to sell you something or it's like he has to prove something to you..... which isn't the case- i am your family so don't try your shit with me.
oh, if you are reading this and you are my family... just remember, this is what i think/ feel and i don't care to prove anything to you. i am who i am and at least i am sincerely happy being like that!

FT Daycare-----Possibly?!

So I am hoping that I get these 2 FT children starting in Monday the 4th. I have been interviewing some people for daycare and there's this couple that i might take- they have 2 children, 18mnths & 3 yrs old. they are so cute... anyways this couple actually seem very decent. The are willing to pay me what i have asked for and they need FT 5 days a week care for the 2 children, there hours are with in my range (actually shorter), and they i only hope that there aren't trash. I hate when people don't pay or just bring the kids whenever they want and only will pay you for that day--- when they agreed to a whole different thing. I gave them my policies and informed them of everything i expect from them as the adult and I can only hope it works out. I am probably going to be watching the kids for a couple days for a trial period and then i hope to start on monday. worst case is that the parents hated me and dont bother w/ me again. If i take these 2 kids, then i am set and in the fall when i lose the 2 pt boys i can try to get a pt 5 day week after school kid. This is my goal and I hope that it works out for me---- all i want is to be able to stay at home with my son and yet have some sort of income- so if i watch 2 FT children and 1 pt child a week i have reached my goal. not only will i be home to take care of Zander & making money, but I am not paying for daycare either. It's either i do this for a few years or i find a REALLY NICE PAYING JOB that will cover my daycare expense and give us alittle extra income. right now we live just fine the way we are, but i want to know that i have alittle extra put away incase i need or want something or just to add to our savings account...and besides- i would love to go on a nice vacation too and not worry about having $$$$$. My husband & i hate charging anything- i don't need any debt and would love to pay off the debt i already have-- so this extra income would be great. BYE BYE Student Loans!!! So wish me luck and i hope they likes me!

booming business

sorry- it's been a little while since i last wrote. I have been alittle busy. My kitchen it pretty much done. I only have very minimul things to do to it.

There was also the 4th of July, and that is Zander's bday too- he had so much fun. He got so many toys- he loves playing with everything--- lately he loves to play outside with his basketball hoop. he also loves all his puzzles....

Well i am also busy w/ watching kids. I am trying to get a FT child- so when the 2 PT boys that i have leave in the fall i will atleast have another child here. I also am hoping to get a PT afterschool kid too. I have also been busy w/ Pampered Chef. I did a flea market the other day and i have been busy with it since. I have a few catalog shows booked and 2 cooking parties also. I am hoping that i get alot more cooking party bookings from the 2 that i have already. I am hoping to get alot of shows for the fall for Pampered Chef- usually it is a big hit for the holidays, but last year i didnt seem to do to swell. so i am pushing for it now and hoping it will go into the fall.i have a show lined up for oct, so i am hoping i can get atleast 3-4 more up until the 1st week of dec. the money i make from this will be good xmas money for the baby's stuff.
well i need to get going, i am also helping with a benefit dinner---- i am trying to get donations for a silent auction and i need to go pick some up- so i will be writing more soon. bye bye

Zander's B-day--- 4th of July 2008